Choosing To Be Happy
By Monica Dutcher
There’s very little warning. A harbinger might be the quick rush of hot blood up the back of the neck and a swirling sensation in the head that spurs crossed eyes and loss of balance. Perspiration thickens and the floor rises up like a cobra. Carpet, asphalt, grass–it happens anywhere. Once something that appears to be solid falls into your viewing field, you white knuckle it until the sensation passes, until the brain stops swinging like a pendulum.
The sensation I speak of is vertigo, specifically the vertigo that plagued me after several attempts to go off Zoloft (sertraline hydrochloride), a selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor prescribed to me for a situational depression during college. Had I known it would have been so hard to stop taking, I would’ve never filled the prescription, especially since there are so many natural alternatives to dealing with depression and anxiety.
In my case, I believe depression was the broad label applied to what I was experiencing, but not the root cause of my struggle. Sometimes, I think “depression” or even a low mood is a choice, the result of a test to see if you decided to languish or dig deep, build character, and develop skills to help manage low self-esteem, stress, life changes, and fear. The following are what I have found to be the ingredients to a life free from the voices in my head that tell me I can’t:
Really have a heart-to-heart with your doctor before taking medication like Zoloft, which will potentially spin you right off your axis and away from the opportunity you’ve been given to take control of you.
Monica Dutcher lives to write, dream, and feel the energy of life coursing through her body. She is working on a novel that explores the psychology of one visionary’s journey toward escaping corporate America and the grip of social expectations.