Friends and Lover

As the weekend comes to us I’m reflecting over the past week which has been filled with memorable times.  What has made me feel so special and begin to reminisce back over just seven days? The fact that I finally feel I have some of the relationships in my life that I have been seeking.  And I’m very grateful about that.  This is when I thank the God that I half believe in at this point in life because skeptical me is being taken care of by whatever forces out there that make life go a certain way – also because that would be the good way.

I left the last phase of my life because I felt I was not where I was supposed to be.  As I would reflect on the people in my life I felt they did not truly and deeply care about me.  I felt that I had no friends who loved Veronica just because of who I am – and for no other reason.  People were part of my life because I was “Mrs. Him” or “Dr. Her”, mother of them or church member with that group.  I was affiliated with them it was because we share the same skin tone, have the same gender and, most sadly,  were obedient wives like that.

I’m grateful that my life drastically changed when I left being wife, doctor and Christian.  I will always keep and fiercely guard my motherhood as I was appointed and chosen to do that special job for three boys (so far).  Now, though, I know the truth and the truth set me free.  I have new friends and real friends and friends who love me for who I truly am.

There is ‘J’ who I met doing my first marathon.  She became my first yoga teacher and a friend who has said to me “You are not your past” over and over again.  She was the first person who, during her yoga class, started by telling us all to let go of all the negative feeling of shame, guilt , doubt and hurt.  And the truth has set me free.

I knew of ‘N’ two years before I physically met her after seeing her picture on a shopping cart.  I kept running across her at the Super Fresh market and learned that she is a real estate agent.  Image my delight when I discovered she was the woman who I moved across the street from after two years of building a house!  ‘N’ became more of a reality in my life when we would meet on some mornings at the bus stop with our sons.  She noticed when I felt bad and pulled me into her home where we drank coffee and she’d hug me.  When I needed to move on to a new home and a new life, she bartered the best deal on earth for me and helped me find the most amazing place.  She fought for me when I didn’t have the strength to care.

My friend ‘B’ and I just started talking one day in the fitness center locker room, half-dressed and sweaty.  We go out on the spur of the moment and talk about our male friends and fashion and parents – anything.  We yak about what is going on while on the elliptical.  My son showed her how to use apps on her Droid and she tells me how wonderful he is.  I listen to her talk of her brilliant grandson who is all of like two years old but the next “Einstein”.  I hear about the life of her son, including the one who is deceased and sends her messages from beyond.  One of the most special things ‘B’ did was to invite me to spend the Jewish holidays with her family.  This is the first time someone thought about me and wanted me to spend time with their family at a special time.

Speaking of being invited to share a special occasion with my friends, now that I’m single I have found that most people have forgotten about me.  I know they really haven’t forgotten but they worry that divorce is “contagious” and I just look too good to be around their husbands – maybe because I have kept myself up (mind, body AND spirit) and they haven’t.

Lover of my soul is what I have been looking for all this time; someone who sees past just outer package of me and sees the spiritual and loving side of me as well.  He has stood there even when I was acting crazy and bananas because I was manifesting the hurt from my last life.  He keeps me grounded in myself and he doesn’t get caught up in the hype of the world.  He is changing as everyone does, yet he is stable and the same.  Calm and philosophical and spiritual too.  Very different from me, he still accepts me and loves me just because I am Veronica.

My body, mind and soul are well because I have figured out how to see true friends and how to be a true friend and lover.  First I became friends with myself.  Look around and assess your life.  Take a break and relax.  When I asked God and the Universe for the Truth, friends and a lover appeared. I was blind, but now I see.  Now I know the truth and the truth has set me free.

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